Posts Tagged ‘healing’

Our upstairs is our private world, unseen by friends and well anyone who isn’t escorted up there.  The escort is necessary so we can excuse the mess.  It isn’t because it is extra special, it’s because it’s extra messy and embarrassing and humbling and well…humiliating really.  Whenever something is left downstairs on the main living level Bill kindly takes it upstairs and puts it in the hallway where there is a bench and a little table which turned into several laundry baskets and other bags over time.  The idea is that if it is taken up there we are each supposed to take our stuff and put it away but that is not what happened.

Instead this hallway began to resemble somewhat of a hoarding space.  One morning at about 7 o’clock I heard a loud crash and a hissed, “Darn it!” from one of our daughters, undoubtedly looking for something she needed that day for school only to find she was hit with an avalanche.  It turned out she was looking for a pair of shoes that she did not find.

I have been on a journey since January that has had a winding and treachorous path leading me to Jesus.  It began with a challenge by the Holy Spirit to read through the Bible to be changed by the Word of God!  I decided I was so desperate to be changed that I wanted to do it in 90 days.  I didn’t want to take a whole year! Then near the end of that time (which turned out to be 82 days because once you hit the New Testament you see the end and you can’t wait to read it all) I started a 30 day cleanse.  I am not sure that I cleansed anything but I tried…“my way” keeping my comforts (coffee mainly).  Then I decided I needed to follow the rules, which I am sure are there for a reason, so I cut out coffee and continued another 30 days…of which I am on day 16.

I expected to cleanse my body, and ended up in the dreaded hoarder’s hallway (a nightmare for me!)  I headed upstairs determined to persevere no matter the dangers that awaited me 🙂  This is my own Pilgrim’s Progress.  As I was digging through it hit me…THIS IS A REFLECTION OF MY PERSONAL HIDDEN AND PRIVATE WORLD.  As long as others don’t see it I can get to it later.  I found so many parallels to my own heart and how I deal (or don’t deal with stuff). It’s as if we think things will fix themselves or they will magically disappear.  In my heart I knew I had to take ACTION for there to be change or it only gets worse and it’s my home and MY RESPONSIBILITY.  Someone has to deal with it, who will it be?   The Hallway for Hoarder’s Fairy?  I don’t think there is one.  I also experience this on repeat for laundry…BTW, there isn’t a Laundry Fairy either.  (Although I have had a few kind souls help me work through the mountain a few times.)

Here’s the “after photo” Sorry no “Before"

Here’s the “after photo” Sorry no “Before”

I am exercising discipline throughout my life inside and out taking care of my stuff.  I want to be able to allow people into every place without excuse or fear.  It’s not easy.  It’s often painful.  It’s also freeing.  It isn’t just my hallway that was cleared, my heart was cleaned first and now it’s working its way through the rest of my world!

Do you have a “Hoarder’s Hallway” of your own?  It’s time for you to take responsibility and let go of some stuff.  Start by reading the Word of God and asking God to change you.  Then see where He takes you on YOUR journey.  His GRACE is sufficient for you! 2 Corinthians 12:9  Do it because you want what God wants. Nothing can be done in your own strength, you have already proven that, right?

Philippians 2:13
Amplified Bible (AMP)
13 [Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is all the while effectually at work in you [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], both to will and to work for His good pleasure and satisfaction and delight.


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The things we hold onto in life lead us.  What are you holding onto?  I have been struck in recent days by the stories of so many friends and ones that I care about deeply.  You can see by a person’s response to change or challenge what they are holding onto.  It can look like fear, hurt, disappointment, or rejection.  It can also look like trust, forgiveness, surrender, and the love of God.  If you can picture holding the hand of your responses to life, if it is a stronghold (or as we tend to call it, an issue) in your life it will lead you.  You cannot hang onto Jesus and the world, you will be stuck.  It’s one or the other.  One must lead and you cannot go both ways. The one you chose will determine your future.

If you are being led by things that are not taking you to a better place in body, mind and spirit there’s hope because the moment you grab the hand of Jesus, so to speak, he will lead you.  His ways are higher than our ways, his thoughts are not our thoughts but when we surrender the things that we cannot change to him he can lead us out of depression, out of hopelessness, and out of darkness.

How does he do this?  Well Phil. 4:8 tells us what we should be thinking about… 8 “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” I have found that the individuals who are hanging onto the negative things in life cannot let them go and tend to show their pain in more extreme ways hoping above all hopes to rid themselves of it just by waving it around.  Life becomes in short order, very much about them wherever they go.  Either it is about them when they get loud and seek to be the center of attention, albeit through controversial communication and discussions, or they control the room by their silences and awkward responses to people around.  Both of these are expressions of pain and a desire to show people how much they are hurting.  This is most often a subconscious response.

Everyone deserves to be loved, forgiven, healed, healthy, whole, fulfilled and joyful.  The answer cannot be found in anyone or anything and no one can get these things for you or give them to you.  The only answer is found in surrender to Jesus and asking Him to lead you to a place of purity, peace, joy, healing and wholeness.  The way to find Him is to tell Him how you feel and stop hiding from Him.  He already knows where you are and cares about you deeply.  Read his Words in the Bible and ask Him how he feels about you or your life.  Look for Him and you will find Him!  Hang onto HIM and He will lead you home.

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